21 April 2004: why...................

fucked up. screwed up.

nothing's going right.

everything's a mess.

i don't know what to do.

i don't know how to act.

i don't know what to say.

i don't know how to continue..

so tell me, what am i supposed to do? what am i gonna do?

i'm so tired of everything.

why am i here?

what am i doing?

why am i doing this?

why?

so many questions, and i can't find the answers.

so tell me.

tell me what's the point. what's the point of everything i'm doing now.

what???????????

i can't take much more of this..

i'm going to explode. i'm going to go crazy.

and all this for what.............

please. at least try to include me. just try. i'm not asking for the world. i'm just asking for people to see. nobody takes notice until i say something. nobody can see anything if i keep my mouth shut. nobody sees the difference. do i look the same to you? do i act the same? do i look like i'm FREAKING okay to everyone? if i do. well, that's that. forget it then..

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